Grateful For Life!

 

 

You formed my inward parts; You wove me in

my mother’s womb. I will give thanks to You,

for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;

Wonderful are Your works,

And my soul knows it very well.

Psalm 139:13-14

 

Life is good notwithstanding the fact that in my early years, I had full of doubts, insecurities, and anxieties; and during midlife, which were my painful, challenging years.  Now I see that God made me experience all those things that caused the doubts, insecurities and anxieties to make me see myself as someone who is not complete without Him. 

I can’t remember never having doubted my abilities.  In my student days, I had classmates who were more intelligent, and in spite of me being  a diligent student, I could never be as good as them.  They were far above me.  I had hoped to graduate from high school with a grade of not less than 90 average, but that did not happen because my grade in my Physics  subject pulled down my average.   Those who were the cream of the crop graduated with honors  (Valedictorian, Salutatorian, First Honors  to Third Honors,  Physicist of the Year, Mathematician of the Year, Historian of the Year, Grammarian of the Year, etc.), while I only got a special award as Balagtas of the Year, which I think my Filipino subject teacher gave me because I was the best Tagalog declaimer in high school.  

After graduating from high school, I did not know what course to take up.  Because of uncertainties, I ended up enrolling in a secretarial course.  Later on, feeling that this course was not enough for me to be able to succeed career-wise, I proceeded to take up Commerce.  Much later, when I was already working in my last job, I took up Master in Business Administration where I was able to finish all units, but I did not submit the thesis that my husband helped me write, neither did I pursue its defense.

Because of my "soft" personality, even though I was already working, I was easily bullied by my boss in my first regular job.   That particular boss made me feel that I was not good enough, he made me feel silly.  I am a person who does not react immediately when I am with people who are not my immediate family.  It takes time before I would react to a situation or to statements made by people, and maybe this is the very reason why some people think I am dumb. 

However, in spite of all the painful incidents in my life because of my soft personality, in the final years of my last job, God blessed me.  After letting me go through difficult and painful experiences, God allowed me and my family to go back to our own house.  He used people (my superiors in my job) to bless me.  The overtime work and job promotion allowed me and my family to go back to our house, and we were able to acquire more than what we had lost during the financial reverses.

It is the Almighty God who made me; it is He who has declared that I am worthy and deserving to be born, and it is His will that everyone who is born must have an abundant life.

God has created each one of us in different circumstances and placed us in different places.  He created us with different temperaments, different levels of intelligence, and different abilities.  

There are people who are leaders, the others are followers.  There are managers, and there are workers.  There are people with different professions and with different talents and skills. There are doctors, nurses, engineers, architects, scientists, artists, musicians, teachers, writers, carpenters, electricians, plumbers, etc.  Every one needs one another.

I know that God knows me more than I know myself.  He knows my very thoughts.  He knows what I will say even before I utter a word.  He knows what I will do even before I actually do it.  If I sin, there is no place where I can go to hide it from Him.  Yes, God knows me well because it is He who created me.  Aside from Him being my Creator, He is also my Savior.  He is a loving and merciful God.  He sent His only Son the Lord Jesus Christ to die for the sins of many, and that includes me!  What a wonderful God and Savior!

An American lady named Eleanor Powell once said, “What we are is God’s gift to us.  What we become is our gift to God.” So it is important that we bloom where we are planted.  We should make use of the opportunities that we have in our life and be thankful for whatever situation we are in.  

Thank you dear God, for creating me, for forgiving all my sins and for loving me.  Thank you for being patient with me even though many times I am slow to respond to your proddings.   

 

Thank you, Lord for everything that You

have done for me.  I know  that

without You, I am nothing.